An Author's Honest Answer to Why Queer Paranormal Stories Matter

People love to ask writers, "So… why do you write?"

It sounds like a simple question, the kind you might answer in a sentence or two over coffee. "Oh, you know, I just love stories." "I've always been a reader." "It's my passion." Those are all true in their own soft, polite way—but they never feel big enough to hold the real answer.

If I'm being honest? Some days the answer is: because I will lose my absolute mind if I don't.

Writing is the itch under my skin, the static in my brain, the constant hum of "what if?" that refuses to shut up no matter how nicely I ask. It's not a charming hobby I dabble in when inspiration strikes between brunches. It's an obsession. A (mostly healthy) addiction. The kind of craving that tracks me down in checkout lines, metro cars, and those 3 a.m. hours when my brain decides now is the perfect time to workshop a vampire's existential crisis.

And honestly? I wouldn't have it any other way.

The "What If?" That Never Shuts Up

Here's the thing about having a brain that won't stop generating stories: it's exhausting in the most delicious way possible.

I can't go anywhere without my imagination hijacking the experience. Waiting for the metro? Suddenly I'm plotting a Victorian vampire's emotional breakdown at IKEA because he can't see himself in the bathroom mirrors and needs someone to tell him if the GODMORGON vanity clashes with his brooding aesthetic. Standing in line at the grocery store? Now I'm wondering what would happen if the guy in front of me paid for his rotisserie chicken with a jar of grave dirt and three whispered secrets.

Ideas don't politely knock and wait for a convenient moment. They kick down the door, make themselves comfortable on your couch, and start demanding snacks. My phone is a graveyard of half-formed notes—sentence fragments, character names, entire plot twists I thumbed out while theoretically paying attention to something else entirely.

This isn't hobby energy. This is "the call is coming from inside the house" energy. And after years of trying to be a normal person with normal hobbies (spoiler: I failed spectacularly), I've made peace with the fact that stories are simply how my brain processes being alive.

My Secret Superpower

For over 25 years, I worked in retail banking—branch floors, customer lines, sales goals that never stopped climbing. I was good at it, too. I climbed the ladder, collected the titles, and collected degrees like Pokémon along the way (three of them, earned mostly at night, because why sleep when you could be writing papers about Victorian ghost stories AND analyzing market trends?).

But the whole time, I was living a double life. By day, I coached bankers and built marketing campaigns, nodding thoughtfully in conference rooms. By night—and early mornings, and lunch breaks—I haunted local coffee shops like a caffeinated ghost, scribbling stories that had absolutely nothing to do with portfolio growth.

And here's what those years taught me: whenever my job required writing—emails, reports, presentations—something shifted. The work that felt mechanical everywhere else suddenly flowed. Faster. Cleaner. Natural. Like my brain had been waiting for permission to do what it actually wanted to do all along.

Writing wasn't just something I enjoyed. It was the thing I was built for. Everything else was just paying the bills until I figured that out.

(The full banker-to-word-gremlin saga—including the "gay job" I built on the side and the great escape to Portugal—gets its own post. It deserves one.)

The Day I Accidentally Created Icons (Thanks, Painkillers)

Let me tell you about the moment I realized this writing thing might actually be my future—and I need you to understand that this story does not make me look cool or professional in any way.

Picture it: 2009-ish. I'm recovering from a back injury, floating on a low dose of Vicodin, hovering somewhere between "functional human" and "pleasantly untethered from reality." Naturally, this seemed like the perfect time to work on the opening chapters of a novel I'd been wrestling with for ages. So I planted myself at my local Starbucks with my usual iced Americano—extra shot of espresso, because why not add rocket fuel to the mix.

Somewhere in that beautiful, hazy collision of chemicals and desperation, two characters walked fully formed onto the page and refused to leave.

Their names? Diamond and Emerald.

Their other names? Rod Lover (legendary male porn star) and Mercy Swallows (iconic Bay Area drag queen).

Their current situation? Trapped in the bodies of a pit bull and a fluffy white cat, respectively. (How did they end up that way? Let's just say it involves a compassionate coven, wrongful murders, and circumstances that are both tragic and absolutely ridiculous. But that's a story for the books themselves.)

I wrote those chapters in a kind of trance—the Twilight Zone kind, where you look up three hours later and realize your fingers have been moving on their own. When I finally blinked my way back to reality and read what I'd written, I braced for disaster. Instead, I found magic. Diamond and Emerald weren't just plot devices. They were iconic. Chaotic. Unforgettable. They set the tone for the entire series, and they taught me something crucial about my own writing:

The best stuff happens when you stop trying to be serious and let the weird in.

Rearranging My Life So Stories Come First

In May 2020—yes, that May 2020—my partner and I did what any entirely reasonable, somewhat eccentric gay couple would do: we packed up our lives and moved to Portugal. We'd been planning it since 2019, so technically the pandemic just gave us an extremely dramatic backdrop. While the world spiraled into chaos, we were booking one-way flights toward the peaceful coastline of Porto. Best decision we ever made.

That move was about choosing a different kind of life—one where the stories didn't have to wait in the margins anymore.

These days, I write full-throttle. Zero brakes. No more squeezing creativity into the cracks between "real" obligations—now the creativity is the obligation. And let me tell you, it's not glamorous. It's me in yesterday's shirt, mainlining coffee, having a passionate argument with a fictional character who refuses to cooperate with the plot I planned for them.

The characters in my head are demanding tenants. They want rent in the form of attention, and they are very good at staging protests. Nathan Barrett will interrupt my shower to workshop a one-liner. Afonso da Cruz (800-year-old vampire, professional disaster) shows up at 2 a.m. to monologue about his feelings. Diamond and Emerald have opinions about everything, and they are not shy about sharing them.

I am essentially running a chaotic group home for imaginary people, and I have never been happier.

Who I Write For (And Why It Matters)

Here's where we get to the heart of it. The real, beating, vulnerable heart that I usually protect with seventeen layers of jokes.

I write for queer readers—and for the allies who love them.

Specifically, I write for the queer kid who grew up never seeing themselves as the hero. The one who was always the sidekick, the tragedy, the cautionary tale, the punchline—if they showed up at all. I write for the queer adult who still carries that kid inside them, still hungry for stories where people like us get to be magical, powerful, messy, joyful, and alive at the end.

I also write for the allies. The parents learning to see the world through their child's eyes. The siblings, friends, and chosen family members who show up fiercely and want to truly get it—not just tolerate, but understand. Your stories matter too. You belong here.

And I write for anyone who has ever felt like a misfit in the "real world" and secretly suspected they'd make much more sense in a cozy haunted town full of witches, werewolves, and found family.

The world has always been complicated for the queer community. But lately? It feels heavier. Books are being banned. Rights are being challenged. The hostility isn't even hiding anymore. And I'm not going to pretend my silly little stories about gay witches and disaster vampires are going to fix any of that.

But I do believe stories can offer something precious: a place to breathe. A place to laugh. A place where queer characters get to be heroes, lovers, survivors, and glorious hot messes without apologizing for existing. My books aren't escapes from queerness—they're escapes into worlds where queerness is woven into the magic itself. Where it's not a problem to be solved or a tragedy to be mourned. Where it just is, as natural as breathing.

Is that corny? Maybe. Do I care? Absolutely not.

What I Want My Stories to Do to You (Consensually)

My stories are love letters. Messy, chaotic, occasionally inappropriate love letters to:

• Magic – the unapologetic, glittery, weird-as-hell kind that doesn't explain itself or follow rules

• Queerness – in all its complicated, joyful, frustrating, fabulous glory

• Beautifully flawed humans (and not-quite-humans) – because perfection is boring, and I want characters with rough edges, terrible decisions, and hearts too big for their own good

I want you to laugh. Ugly-laugh, preferably—the kind where you snort and have to explain yourself to whoever's nearby.

I want your heart to ache a little. Maybe more than a little. (I contain multitudes, and some of those multitudes are devastating emotional gut-punches disguised as cozy paranormal mysteries.)

I want you to feel that stubborn flicker of hope—the one that says maybe there actually is a place in the world where I fit.

And when you finish one of my books, I want you to feel like you've visited somewhere real. Somewhere you'd like to go back to. Somewhere that feels, impossibly, a little bit like home.

So, Why Do I Write?

We've arrived back at the impossible question, and I still don't have a tidy answer.

I write because I can't not write. Because the stories claw at the inside of my skull until I let them out. Because somewhere along the way, between the spreadsheets and the degrees and the chaos, I realized this is the thing that makes me feel most like myself.

I write because queer kids deserve to see themselves as heroes. Because adults deserve books that make them laugh and cry and believe in magic again. Because the world is hard, and sometimes we need a place to hide for a while—a cozy, haunted, ridiculous place full of witches and vampires and found family and really excellent banter.

I write because these stories won't leave me alone.

And I hope—truly, stubbornly, with my whole chaotic heart—that they won't leave you alone either.

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